Ch 76 (Part 2): Rebirth of the Tool Man in a Pampered Protagonist Novel

“I’m even more vicious than you can imagine. Shi Meijing is just one of my many masterpieces. In the future, I will do even more extreme things, but I don’t regret any of it, and I don’t feel guilty at all.”

“I hold grudges. They provoked me, and there is only one end for them. That is to send them all to hell.”

Fang Ziyang looked up.

“Initially, you advised me not to let hatred blind and control me, but I couldn’t do it. To seek revenge, I would rather become a devil.”

So, please don’t like him, okay?

He could handle it on his own. He didn’t want to burden anyone who treated him kindly. Those things were truly precious.

Fang Ziyang tried hard to suppress his emotions.

Xie Zheng remained silent for a while, his gaze fixed on Fang Ziyang with profound depth, before speaking,

“Is that your reason for rejecting me?”

“Can’t that be the most fatal reason?” Fang Ziyang’s voice was strained. “Brother Xie, there are some things I can’t explain clearly to you. All I can tell you is that we can never be together.”

“Temporary affection cannot last a lifetime. We are different people, unable to walk the same path. I won’t waver because of anything, and I don’t want to throw myself into the fire like a moth.”

“Brother Xie, most people who can walk together are not necessarily in love, but they are compatible. I’m not compatible with you… So please, really don’t like me, okay? Your liking brings me pressure, not happiness, because I will do many things that you’ll despise.”

Fang Ziyang tightly clenched his fingernails in his palm, lowering his gaze to hide the tears welling up.

He had shed tears only a few times in his previous life, despite experiencing so much. As time went on, his heart grew harder, to the point where even the final failure couldn’t make him shed a single tear.

But now, he wanted to cry, to cry out loud and vent his emotions.

It wasn’t that he had no fondness for Xie Zheng, but he couldn’t choose Xie Zheng or anyone else. Xie Zheng was one of the few people who genuinely treated him well.

He struggled to suppress the feelings in his heart.

Suddenly, Xie Zheng spoke again,

“Have you tried? How do you know we’re not compatible? You haven’t even asked, so how can you know that I only like your innocent and obedient side?”

Fang Ziyang’s body froze.

Xie Zheng’s stern face softened like never before, “If I only liked your innocence and obedience, I would have liked you a long time ago. Even though you had a bit of a spoiled attitude and were a bit foolish for liking someone like Xie Wenxu, you were always shy and obedient whenever you came to the Xie family. If I truly only liked that side of you, why would I have agreed to your engagement with Xie Wenxu back then?”

“Was that diary intentionally shown to me by you? But how can you be so sure that I can’t accept a devil like you?”

Fang Ziyang slowly raised his head and stared blankly at the person in front of him.

Xie Zheng reached out and rubbed his hair, continuing, “If I advised you back then, it’s because I could see your true self. In my principles, many of your actions aren’t great, but that doesn’t mean I can’t accept them, because I know you’re different from those real devils. Ziyang is not a bad child…”

He admitted that the young man had many unconventional and ruthless methods. But if he was truly that bad, he wouldn’t have willingly revealed his true self to reject Xie Zheng, considering the harm it could cause.

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There was no completely good or bad person in the world. The young man had too much self-doubt and idealized Xie Zheng too much.

He wasn’t as upright as Fang Ziyang thought he was. They were not people from two different worlds; they were the same kind of person.

“Although I don’t know exactly what hatred you carry in your heart, I can see that everything you do is in retaliation. If those people hadn’t done something to wrong you, you wouldn’t be so cruel to them. I understand what kind of person you are; you don’t need to tell me who you truly are.”

“How do you know that I’m retaliating? Do you have evidence? Even if that’s the case, I just disabled Shi Meijing, a girl. She will spend the rest of her life in bed, unable to speak. Isn’t that too cruel? Don’t you think I’ve gone too far?”

Fang Ziyang’s eyes suddenly became moist, and he turned his head away.

He tightly clenched the blanket beneath him, trying to remain calm and not be swayed or deceived by such trust.

“It’s just because you like me now that you’re finding reasons for me. This is a filter. And even if you can accept such cruel and ruthless methods from me, so what? I don’t like you, I…”

“Are you trying to say that you already have someone you like? The owner of that ring?”

Xie Zheng interrupted him.

Fang Ziyang suddenly fell silent, looking at the man in front of him, whose gaze remained deep and warm. He truly felt despicable.

His heart was filled with calculations. He had never spoken a truthful word to Xie Zheng, yet Xie Zheng always treated him with the utmost tolerance and sincerity. Even before they recognized each other as brothers, Xie Zheng had treated him very well. On the surface, his attitude seemed cold, but he always helped him during critical moments.

Since his current persona had already collapsed to this extent, it didn’t matter if he further broke it down.

Fang Ziyang took a deep breath, “No, I lied to you. I don’t actually like the owner of the ring or anyone else. I’m sorry, Brother Xie. Everything I told you before was fake. I did want to find the owner of the ring, but not because I liked him…”

This time, Xie Zheng’s expression finally changed.

Fang Ziyang hesitated to meet his gaze, closed his eyes, and shamelessly continued,

“I want to have a child with that person, a pure child of his.”

“What? What are you saying?”

Xie Zheng’s face directly turned to stone.

Why was it that he understood each word individually, but when they were put together, he couldn’t understand?

Fang Ziyang covered his head, recalling the child that had come into this world and left without opening his eyes, and choked out, “I can’t explain it to you. Anyway, I just want to have a child with that person. You can think I’m crazy or stupid, but I must do it. In this lifetime, I won’t like anyone.”

Although that child’s arrival wasn’t pure and had caused him pain and confusion, it had also been the source of his motivation during his darkest times.

When he insisted on giving birth to the child back then, apart from the stirring of blood ties, there was also a trace of impure calculation…

How could he not bear any grudges when he was so wretchedly driven out of the Fang family? At that time, he wanted revenge, to wash away the grievances and desires he had suffered. However, he had no resources or background, and the people who could help him avoided him like snakes and scorpions, while those willing to help him didn’t have the ability to do so.

Finally, he thought of the other father of the baby.

He speculated that the man he had a relationship with, based on the ring he left behind, must have come from a distinguished background. The responsible note left behind afterwards further proved the man’s character. If he gave birth to the child, the man wouldn’t be as heartless as others, considering the child’s face.

He admitted that such thoughts were extremely twisted and extreme, driven by manipulation and calculation. But at that time, it was the only way he could think of to turn his situation around.

With these thoughts in mind, combined with the growing father-son bond he developed with the baby later on, he persisted for those reasons during that period.

Who knew reality would be so cruel…

That child was no longer just a child to him; it represented his hope and conviction. It had become a knot in his heart.

Rebirth didn’t mean he could start a new life.

As long as the knots and grudges from his previous life remained unresolved, he could never truly be reborn.

Fang Ziyang stared at Xie Zheng, mustering the little courage he had left to smile, “Brother Xie, do you really know what kind of person Fang Ziyang, whom you like, is? You don’t know at all. I will never like anyone in this life because no one can enter my world.”

“Even if I was to choose someone to be with, that person definitely wouldn’t be you because I truly can’t afford your feelings. Do you understand…”

In this lifetime, he could never have a partner who truly bound his emotions because of the things he had done, which ordinary people couldn’t comprehend.

Even if Xie Zheng was willing to accept all of his crazy and neurotic behavior, Fang Ziyang couldn’t bring himself to selfishly enjoy the other’s sincerity.

The space in the hospital room suddenly became quiet, with only the sound of their breathing audible.

“I want to rest now, Brother Xie, please leave.”

Fang Ziyang lay down and covered his head with the blanket, signaling his unwillingness to continue the conversation.

He had made himself clear. It was better to end the pain sooner rather than later. No matter what Xie Zheng said, he wouldn’t waver. This was his last act of kindness. He could be ruthless and cruel without any scruples, but he absolutely didn’t want to become someone like Yan Tong, who played with other people’s emotions without any moral boundaries. That was what he despised and hated the most.

It was unclear how much time had passed.

Xie Zheng’s voice sounded again,

“So, are you planning to let my child grow up in a single-parent household, or will you let my child call someone else father?”

Fang Ziyang, who was hiding under the blanket, suddenly opened his eyes wide and sat up, “What do you mean, Brother Xie?”

“Fang Ziyang, I can’t change you, but I can change myself. So, let’s be in a relationship with the goal of marriage.”

Xie Zheng reached out and held Ziyang’s head, his warm breath pouring down as he leaned in and kissed him.

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